Psychedelic Diaries Vol 2: Seven types of profound macrodose trips
Updated: Apr 5
They don’t call it "ineffable" for nothing. The big challenge in describing mystical experiences is that language-as-an-interface has inherent limitations. A good analogy is “being in love.” Compare reading about being in love vs the experience the first time you fell in love.
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I’ve had 100+ trips and all of them are different, beautiful and impactful in various ways.
Sometimes you’re off in a distant dimension or galaxy. Other times, while smack dab in the middle of the trip, you’ll feel completely and utterly lucid.
Then, on occasion, one of the profound trips happens.
The themes of these profound trips have resonated with other psychonauts I’ve talked with so there appears to be a consistent tapestry. In guiding others, I’ve also noticed there may be a particular chronology* to the profound trips.
Almost as if the 5th dimension** is weaning you into the various stages of illumination.
Here are 7 profound trips:
1) The Soul Mover
Imagine one of those slick Detroit car manufacturing machines that attaches parts, like the door, to the car. But instead of the door it’s your soul... and instead of the car it’s the human avatar.
It pulled me in-and-out a few times as if to say... do you get it now, Ray?
2) The Blue Light
It feels like you are riding / part of / inextricable from a vast blue beam of light that is all of existence. My consciousness was embedded in an intertwined infinity of space and time.
I came away from this feeling that I had experienced nirvana.
3) The Family
I had a visceral interaction with deceased family: my father, grandfather and grandmother. I’m not big into the paranormal and yet came away unequivocally convinced I had interacted with them.
My lasting memory is telling them that I miss them, they responded by saying “we’re so proud of you,” then I experienced the most intense cry I can remember.
4) The Alien
This 5th dimension entity/presence is a common part of my trips and, in this particular trip it felt like a very alien presence. But the alien presence was also paradoxically familiar... a strange feeling that the 5th dimension aliens were my family.
Not as a replacement for my human family, but rather, a family at a more fundamental level. It left a feeling that this human experience is just a ride.
5) The Control Room
Imagine operating the master control room of a power plant. You can control every component of the power plant, pull any reading or stat. Now imagine that instead of a power plant, it’s you. It feels like going to the control panel of your own existence and having a chance to poke around.
6) The Rebirth
This was one of the most important and helpful experiences of my life.
My whole consciousness was wiped. I was reborn as another person, so much so that I didn't even recognize who I had been. My body language and motor skills immediately after the rebirth closely resembled the behavior of a freshly newborn infant.
This experience was so profound it deserves its own article someday.
7) The Meeting with God
The most ineffable experience of them all. This one changed the course of my life and still brings tears to my eyes.
It wasn’t a bearded Old Testament god, or even a human form. It was an amorphous energy form that was undeniably much bigger than me on a dimensional level. I felt a profound sense of love.
If you've ever had a really smart dog, there are moments where he looks at you and wants to understand you, more than anything, but can't. In those moments, your love and connection to that dog is so strong that all you want to do is help him understand. You can't, so in lieu of that, you simply communicate your love to him.
Now imagine the roles are reversed. You are that loved dog that wants to understand, more than anything, but can’t. Yet you feel loved on a level that defies words.
These seven have fundamentally altered the nature of my existence.
One piece of advice: if you’re adventuring, try not to want or seek any of these experiences.
Seeking or expecting them is the best way to not have them. Rather, let the medicine do what it wants and do your best to be a blank slate.
More to come on being a "blank slate" in a future post.
Coming up next in Volume 3: Preparing for a Macrodose.
* I shuffled the order of the experiences to avoid biasing your journeys
** I refer to the “5th dimension” as an entity-place that’s aware of your journeys and may be directing your experience. Its presence and impact on trips is palpable. It could be God, it could be a higher dimension version of you, could be both.